Are you a Man or Mouse?

First, I must acquire a partner. I am under no misconceptions that there can only be one. Despite popular opinion and practice, I don’t feel the need, nor do I buy into the hype, that I need to sample men. There’s no need to test flavors, acquire substitutes or play house, try out options or explore different models. I won’t be used for any of that. You’re either ready for the full purchase or you can keep on moving.

Excerpt: You Must Believe to Understand

There are many relationships during the course of our lives through which we have to navigate our way. Some of those relationships fail and die because one or both parties involved are unfamiliar with the process of love, repentance and forgiveness. Love, repentance and forgiveness are more than just words that you speak and forget about. Love requires action. Repenting mends the love you hurt. Forgiveness is a loving response to the attack on love. They are all choices. Asking is involved. Receiving is necessary. Giving is the only way each is shared.

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When my dad died, I realized that I had been subconsciously waiting for him to want a relationship with me. With my hope turned on low, I still hoped he would one day reach out to me in response to all my pass efforts… but he refused to send word to me, to request my presence, to offer reconciliation. That saddened me, but I realized he preferred to go to his grave before reconciling our relationship. Building a relationship was of no interest to him. And I’m okay with his preference. Understanding that about him put my interactions with men in a whole new light. My intolerance, my harshness. My hope, my repeated efforts. My exhaustion and frustration. My desire to build a relationship and lack of understanding of how to go about it. My ineffective communication and my inability to get what I want – a husband and family of my own.

Small Ripples, Big Impact

Over the last few months, I’ve been trying harder than usual to make sense of life (in general) and the people who have crossed my path (more specifically). Attempting to understand the vagaries of life and relationships has proved to be a futile effort which soon ended with me throwing up my hands and accepting that nothing matters at all. A devastating thought. Crushing, actually, and depressing because if nothing in life matters, it stood to reason that I didn’t matter either.

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Jacquie Booth

LaShawnda – Thank you so much for sharing this. I’m sitting here in tears now reading this because I didn’t know how to express how I was feeling. Reading this has touched me very deeply. Yep – I too need love and shouldn’t be ashamed to admit it. It is definitely time for me to also “fold up my petals” in a few places. BUT GOD is good and is clearly asking me to pay attention to some of the wonderful new, nurturing and giving people he has placed in my life. God Bless you for sharing of yourself and your experiences so openly. I continue to be blessed by your writing. Peace & Blessings your way – ~jax.

Anon

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Wanda

Hi LaShawnda,

I came across your blog via the christian women blogger network. I love that you were able to take away some lessons from your experience. I particularly like the following statements: “I know she didn’t enjoy a good portion of her life because she was always waiting on something better, something else, someone else…. I’ve been living from her lessons most of my life: enjoy each day as it comes with the people who are present.” and “Relation does not equal relationship.” Those are powerful statements and as a collector of quotes I’m adding those to my list.

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