“Your blessing is going to suck!”
No one really tells you that, but people may be thinking that when they tell you to “be careful what you ask for”.
I think I over-estimated my readiness.
For years, I’ve lived with the presumption that every day of my life is preparation for the days to come. I thought I was ready for tomorrow. I would’ve sworn that I was ready for the next stage. Eager to begin my next chapter. However, in certain ways my readiness has become a torturous idea holding me back. Standing ready for everything to come has kept me in a constant state of anticipation for all that I don’t yet have – but desire to receive. The good – preparation – has morphed into a negative focus on my lack.
I used to see my preparation and readiness as blessings. Now I see that all I ever really needed was (and will ever need is) a willingness to move when God’s Spirit tells me to do so.
Moses wasn’t ready… to speak. He tried to talk God out of his assignment to tell Pharaoh to let his people go. Gideon wasn’t ready… to hear God; he tested the Lord repeatedly before agreeing to obey His instructions in order to bring down the walls of Jericho. Esther wasn’t ready…, but she believed she had been positioned for such a time as she found herself in – as the wife of a king she was able to influence in order to help her people. Jesus wasn’t ready…, but He was willing to fulfill His Father’s purpose for His life, so He delivered His Spirit into His Father’s care.
Readiness, as we view it, may be the lie. God doesn’t need us to be ready in order to use us or bless us. He simply needs us to be willing. Willing to trust Him. Willing to obey Him. Willing to believe that His purpose for our lives is much greater than what we’ve been preparing ourselves for. Willing to appreciate that everyone is one person with a divine assignment and we all need to be willing to allow God to use us as a domino effect to bless countless others.
Blessings only suck when you take your eyes and focus off of the One who instructs, guides and blesses you.
Then Jesus went back to his followers and found them asleep. He said to Peter, “You men could not stay awake with me for one hour? Stay awake and pray for strength against temptation. The spirit wants to do what is right, but the body is weak.”
Then Jesus went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this painful thing to be taken from me, and if I must do it, I pray that what you want will be done.”~ Matthew 26:40-42, NCV